Wednesday, December 11, 2013

my anger rant in short, to the point statements.

1. Preferring words of affirmation as your love language, and being a needy whiner that needs constant affirmation that you're doing things right, are 2 totally different things. You're a grown adult, do the best you can and that's that. I have my own crap to take care of , Im not your keeper.

2.  When it comes to my best friends,  I will tell them as much or as little as I feel is appropriate about my home life. DEAL.

3. How dare you give me a B when you haven't graded a single assignment all semester.

4.  Know that when it comes to your employee evaluation, in ANY job,  you are expected to do things outside of work, and YES, your boss looks at that. Whether it's stay late or attend a work shindig, DO IT and quit your whining. Welcome to corporate America., learn the ropes.

5.  Not every person in America is on food stamps to milk money off of the government, and not  every person in America is a free loader. STOP making assumptions when you don't know the whole truth. about that person or their life.

6.  The U.S has no official language OR religion. Yup, I'll speak Spanish all day  if I want to.

7.   Unless you currently have a 94 or above in my class, I DARE you to  fall asleep during exam review.

8.  Don't buy shit you can't afford and accumulate debt you can't pay. Someone, somewhere has to make up what you were too stupid to save.

9.   I went to college for  4 years and will finish with my masters in May. After all of that, I will as STILL only make $24.30 and hour.  I wish you would pay fast food employees $15.  For a job with no work to take home and nothing to worry about besides drama and a clean uniform, I'll quit my career and work there too.

10.  Making friends with people you work with is a very smart decision, especially in the educational field. If you want to assume people have no lives because they hang out with work people, you're the one missing out. 

Thursday, October 24, 2013

A New View

Welp, of course. I've slacked again on posting.

But, I've at least thought about it multiple times!

Still no excuse for not doing it.


Let's talk about work!

Cause that's all I really have these days...

Odd thing is- I was really nervous about being a middle school MATH teacher in an all GIRLS school. Like, really nervous. I mean, my babies at the Wood weren't awful, but they certainly weren't the best kids I've ever seen. And sure, I had them under control, but it didn't feel like it most of the time. So, going to an all girls middle school was pretty scary. Here's the cool part's been awesome! Sure, I still have some behavioral problems, and sometimes I wonder if they're learning anything, but then I realize that my scores are looking pretty good so far, and that I haven't gone home upset once about something a student did or said. The girl drama isn't too bad either. The math teacher part I was more concerned about. It's going pretty well too. Sometimes I mess up, and sometimes I make mistakes, but no more than I did in my first year of teaching with every subject. And, if you think about it, this is kind of like a first year of teaching all over again.

The boss lady's pretty chill too, but I've learned that if I do my job, do it well, and go the extra mile, people are generally willing to help out. I've had an emergency that I had to leave work and she was more than understanding, and so far she's been very helpful.

What I'm saying is, I like it here. I think it's my home school.

Other stuff-
Since I've moved to Abuela's, things at home have been pretty chill, too. I spent the night at Ozark one night last week, and waking up with all of the Bland's and getting ready at multiple times was more stress than I like having while getting ready, so it's nice to just be able to get up and ready by myself in my own bathroom without having to let anyone else in or wait on anyone.

Nala's enjoying Abuela's company as well. Abuela has started giving her small bites of randomness, and Nala loves it. Yesterday, Abuela told Nala that she loved her "un poquito" MILESTONE.

Fall Break is also winding down, which makes me sad because I've done boring adult things all week. Oil change, dentist, doctors office, car wash, returning items, bank, vet, etc. But I guess the positive is that I at least got them done finally.

Dueces from my new view on Fair Street, which, coincidentally looks towards Ozark Road, Place, and Circle. Hence, Fair View of the Ozarks.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

a modge podge


Long time no speak.

Updates of my life:
Was wrecked in June, a lady almost killed me on Hixson pike. Minor injuries were sustained.
I bought a new car! Toyota Rav 4, 2013 (for all you who thumb your noses at me, 100% paid for by me)
New job! I teach 7th grade math at Chattanooga Girls Leadership Academy, and I LOVE IT. I love my team, and I love my girls. I got lucky.
Still in graduate school. Will finish May 2014. Not. Soon. Enough.
Moved into my Abuela's, and I've decided to stay here.

Ramblings from a frustrated mind...

I really can't stand the phrase "you don't know how I feel." No one can tell you how you currently feel, how you have felt, or how you will feel. I can't stand when people are going through something and you're trying to be helpful and they throw things in your face. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to say people's problems aren't bad. But just because someone isn't CURRENTLY going through what you are, doesn't give you the right to assume or voice what they have endured or how it's made them feel.

Which brings me to...
Don't talk down to people. I don't care if you've been teaching 30 years, or 2 weeks. I don't care if you've been through graduate school 5,000 times, don't talk down to people like they are stupid, or more importantly like you know more than they do. I am a FIRM believer that everyone in this world can learn to do something from someone else, or can gain information from someone else, everyone has something to offer. If you don't believe me, spend a day with any kid of any age. If you didn't learn something, you're the problem. That being said, I fully expect certain people to talk down to me. My boss, parents, certain people in a certain way. When you are my equal in every way, it is unacceptable. What your tone and actions. And if by chance this is just "your personality" you'd better find a new one and soon, because I may not say something to you, but the same can't be said for the rest of society.

One upping...
DON'T do this. Myself (and many people) across the globe HATE one uppers. If someone has had a bad day, do NOT reply with, "really, how about my day..." no. If I've worked 14 hour days for 3 weeks, I don't really care if you've worked one for a day. Welcome to life. When someone graduates, do not shove your engagement ring in their face, their degree will get them further than your ring anyways. If you can't say anything consoling to that person, then smile and shake your head sorrowfully for them and move on. Don't be rude.

Doing things you don't want to...
In life, there are always times you will have to do things you don't really want to do. I am the queen of this, because I don't want to do 75% of what I do, but I like to make people happy, so I do it. HOWEVER, when it comes to doing things with me, if you don't want to do it, or aren't interested, than just say so. Because I can easily find someone else to do it with, or will do whatever it is by myself, but I certainly do not need anyone to do anything for or with me that they aren't interested in. SO just don't.

On a more lighthearted note...
I've had a wonderful birthday week, my baby brother is all move away to college and I miss his guts, I've made some great friends at my new work, and I'm loving living with abuela. I have few complaints about life, other than I'm still itching to travel, and I'm not sure where that will be taking me in the future. Also, I've been sucked into a novela with abuela, and it's pretty much amazing.

"It's been a long time, been a long time, been a lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely time."

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

stressed the funk out.

As negative as my posts can be at times, I try really hard not to consider myself a depressed person. Unfortunately, that is something I can rapidly feel changing about myself.

It's the oddest thing. To be aware of that fact that you're falling, that you're losing control, and that you don't really know what to do, but that you can't seem to change it.

I do the things I know to do; keep myself busy, clean my room, read, do laundry, go out, drink some, hang out with friends, but it's like the first milisecond I can't keep my brain occupied it has a brain of it's own and just keeps going back to the same thought process: "you need a job, TCAP, you need a job, TCAP, research paper for class, you need a job, TCAP."

Add to the mix that, as usual, the men in my life are driving me crazy, and you have yourself a certified not thinking straight lady.

I'm reading the book "Silver Linings Playbook" in hopes of helping me find silver linings in my current life situation, but we can hope.